On Tuesday, February 3 our little girl was born stillborn with the umbilical cord wrapped around her neck. I was 28 weeks along, so she was only 1 lb 9 oz. and 13 inches long, but perfect in every way. Nathan and I spent the evening alone in the hospital room holding her and kissing her, and got to catch a glimpse of heaven as we did so. We dressed her up in preemie clothes and took pictures, and just held her and cried. Those were really special hours we will always treasure and be grateful for. We named her Julianne Holladay after my best friend in New York.
The three older kids got to come to the hospital and hold Julianne and feel of her special spirit. Friday afternoon we had a small, simple graveside service for her. It was very difficult, but spiritual as well. I don’t know why Heavenly Father took little Julianne from us when we were so excited to have her in our family, but we know that everything is in His hands. We have felt His loving arms around us throughout the whole birth and burial and now as we mourn her loss. We have been blessed through the prayers of family members and friends and have grown closer as a family because of this experience.
On Saturday Nathan and I went to the temple together, which brought us much comfort and peace. My sister, Lori, who had come out to help for the week, brought the children afterward and we enjoyed walking around the temple grounds as a family. I'm so grateful for the knowledge we have that families are forever.
11 comments:
Look at that precious tiny hand! Oh, Marcie...we love you guys.
the Thayns
Oh Marcie and Nathan, we am so sorry! We will keep your family in our prayers. Your testimony is so inspiring...thank you.
We are so sorry for your loss. The picture of Madaline holding her is so sweet. We will keep you in our prayers also. Give your kids big hugs from us. Take care!
We'll be praying for you as well--thank you for sharing your experience. We love you!
I am so sorry. My heart aches for you. Your testimony was beautiful.
Oh my goodness Marcie and Nathan- I'm so sorry and sad for the passing of your little one. I can't imagine what you must be going through. But, I know that you are strong and with those other precious 5 kids and your firm faith in the gospel, you will make it through. Our prayers and thoughts are with you.
Marcie, please accept our condolences. Ben and I are so sorry for your loss. You are in our prayers. We admire your family so much. You are such an example to us.
the Bikmans
Marcie, I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your testimony with us.
marcie - i'm so sorry! i'm so glad that the spirit was able to comfort you. Big hugs to you!
Marci,
My heart broke when Dana told me of your loss. I too lost a baby (my fifth) at the same point in the pregnancy. The trauma and sweetness of that time is too personal and emotional to probably ever relate except in prayer. My heart is with you and Nathan darling.
Aunt Mona
http://monasgospelmusings.blogspot.com/
Oh Marcie! I was just checking in on your blog today and am just heart sick for your family. Your testimony was very sweet. I know that it's the great challenges in our lives that truly define us. I hope you know how much we love your family and hope you all are doing well.
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